“Train Thoughts” Book Review & Author Interview with Jay Sigler

“Train Thoughts” the title enough could pique one’s interest. It causes readers to question what terminology of “train” the author is implying. Is he referring to a locomotive? Or is he indicating how one can train their thoughts? Due to the versatility within these pages, there is no wrong answer.

Upon seeing the cover, its image hints that a train will set the stage. But, as one reads, the text does reveal the idea of trained thought. Supporting this statement is the quote, “The mind is a very powerful thing. You’d be surprised at how much it can get you through.” Stressing significance, this quote appears as a constant reminder throughout the book. It suggests, if one wills their train of thought enough then reality and fantasy can blur.

“Train Thoughts” opens with bleak heavyheartedness. Written in first person, the narrator speaks about the murder of his wife, Vicky. Grief stricken, many negative revelations hit him in a short time. Among them, he realizes he will never receive closure on Vicky’s death. Furthermore, he realizes this tragedy has interrupted his everyday pattern of life. Specifically, this concerns the life he led with Vicky and the pattern of living they shared.

Trapped in a state of melancholy, he attempts trudging forward to resume a normal life. By routine, his morning begins with a two hour train commute to work. During this commute, he will sometimes read. Though he spends most of his ride eavesdropping and living vicariously through passengers.

Among them, he has developed an infatuation with a group of friends, Sheila, Neil, and Frank. Aside from the friends, he is smitten by a separate couple, Gina and Rob. Although he has never spoken to any of these people, he considers them his friends. Because of his observations, he is aware of their routines and habits.

When he arrives at work, most people in his office feel like he has returned too soon and hasn’t had the time to grieve. While at his profession, his pestering co-worker, Julie, visits. In short time, she presents an overbearing and obsessive personality, one that seems like she harbors a fatal attraction towards him. After brushing off her advances, he continues focusing on his duties and himself.

Once all characters are set, the nightmares begin. At first, the visions are nothing more than disturbing imagery. Yet, as the book advances, these nightmares become a window into the death of those he holds dear. In reality, a maniac is killing his friends in correlation to his dreams. Upon detecting a pattern, the narrator tries to stay one step ahead of the murderer.

Over time, the narrator becomes convinced he shares his commute with the maniac. With this revelation, he becomes more observant to other passengers. Doing so, the narrator discovers a mysterious man shares his ride. This enigmatic character, who the narrator calls, Shawn, is a calculating introvert. Like the narrator, Shawn also eavesdrops and observes other passengers.

Daily, as the narrator’s friends dwindle, his suspicions against Shawn grow. Based on dreams and instinct alone, it is now up to the narrator to investigate. From here, the plot becomes a high speed game of cat and mouse.

For observant readers, there are symbolic hidden messages that regard the killer’s identity. These clues appear in the narrator’s nightmares. By dream interpretation, the following symbols are relevant. This includes: rats, wasps, snakes, scorpions, and spiders. Also, in dreams, the killer’s weapons are a switchblade and a staff that appears as Vicky’s severed arm.

Character wise, the entire cast suffers from depression or disorders. For example, the narrator is unable to ever pull himself out of grief. Although he has the opportunity to better himself, he chooses to live in sadness. Eventually, he suffers from obsession and alcoholism. Aside from the narrator, Sheila has an eating disorder. Neil exaggerates the truth to seem interesting. Frank maintains a smile, although he always seems like he is on the verge of crying. Gina and Rob are an unmarried couple. Despite their contentment, one can sense they have commitment issues. Last, Julie’s character displays sexual repression.

Once becoming familiar with everyone’s disorders, I noticed something more important. If one combines each individual’s downfall, these troubles construct the narrator’s overall personality. Examples: Sheila’s food obsession is equivalent to the narrator’s alcoholism. Neil’s verbal exaggerations parallel the narrator’s emotional exaggerations. Frank’s fake happiness matches the narrator’s ability to mask his own depression. Gina and Rob’s commitment issues reflect the narrator’s unstable relationships. Julie’s promiscuity bares similarities to the narrator’s own sex life. Last, Shawn shares the narrator’s greatest qualities… being an introvert and a loner.

After connecting these characteristics, there is but one conclusion. The narrator sees fragments of depression in each passenger. Upon recognizing these disorders, he relates to each individual. This connection is what encourages the narrator to call these strangers his friends.

Above all, “Train Thoughts” presents two separate themes. One is the power of the mind. Mind power receives justification through the narrator doing what is necessary to survive. He presents the idea of distancing oneself from the horrors of the external world to remain sane. This method also speaks of denial. Not only the denial of one’s surroundings, but the denial of one’s actions.

A second theme stresses that humans are creatures of habit. Once something breaks routine, the subject becomes lost. This leaves the subject questioning how to pick up the pieces and continue life uninterrupted.

When I purchased “Train Thoughts,” I received more than what I bargained for. To sum up this book, I would have to call it the bastard child of William S. Burroughs’s “Naked Lunch” and L. Ron Hubbard’s “Fear.” If one has read those two books, you know exactly what you’re getting into. Not every day does a work of horror art like “Train Thoughts” pull into station. I highly recommend this trippy commute that pays homage to old school horror literature. “Train Thoughts” is for adults only.

Now, for the first time on this blog, I am adding something extra. Jay Sigler has agreed to provide me with an interview on “Train Thoughts.” Knowing that he is a busy man, I would like to thank him for granting me this opportunity. Without further ado, here’s a one way ticket into the brilliant mind that brought us, “Train Thoughts.”

AB: What inspired your work?

JS: I have loved reading from an early age, specifically horror and everything Stephen King. I later branched out to Chuck Palahniuk and Bret Easton Ellis, both who were huge influences on my writing.

The story of Train Thoughts came about during my two hour, each way, commute I took to work (much like the main character). I would sit in the same car every day, and see the same people every day. Everyone has their own story of how they got to where they are in life and it fascinates me to hear and learn about them. I couldn’t learn about everyone personally on the train, so I started imagining what their lives might be like based solely on my observation. It was a fun way to pass the time…. until a dark and twisted story developed.
AB: A major part of “Train Thoughts” is dream interpretation. Do you interpret your own dreams and why did you choose dream interpretation to allude to clues and the murderer?

JS: I have always been interested in dreams and what they mean. You can learn so much about yourself and what’s really happening inside your head, if you pay attention to them. It’s amazing to me how different people have certain feelings and emotions represented as the same thing in dreams; it’s pretty creepy when you think about it.

I wanted to use dreams in Train Thoughts as a way to “show not tell.” There is a lot of psychology happening as the main character deals with enormous loss and you can only say that in so many words. The dream sequences allowed me to describe these emotions in a way that touched upon the common themes we all experience in our dreams. I wanted the reader to actually feel them.

I also wanted a way to bring some messed up, insane horror to the story while it still being something believable that could happen in everyday life. Dreams allowed me to do that since there are no rules in a dream!

AB: At one point, I believed multiple characters were guilty and the killer could be anybody. How difficult was it to create a scenario that caused the reader to constantly doubt their suspicions?

JS: This was a bit difficult for me to achieve (if one would say I did). I had to constantly act as if I had never read the story before and be very critical of how each character’s arc played out. I needed there to be just enough to suggest the killer was a given character while also putting doubt in the reader’s mind; I struggled at times to find that balance.

AB: Being a family man, do you allow your kids to read your work? If so, what are their thoughts? If not, at what age would it be suitable for them to read “Train Thoughts?”

JS: I have two children, neither of which will read Train Thoughts until they are at least sophomores in high school! They know daddy’s book is scary and inappropriate for kids. I’ll sometimes take pictures with them holding the book, acting like they are scared but that’s all just for fun. I’m less worried about my daughter (5) looking inside since she can’t read (yet…), but when I see my son (9) start to take a peek, I make sure to take it away. He’s getting a little too smart for his own good but I am glad he wants to read it.

I am proud that both of them say they also want to write books. I think the overall journey of publishing Train Thoughts has had a very positive impact in getting them more interested in reading and writing. They see that I have written a book and it gives them confidence that they can too. My son and I have even started writing a few stories together!

AB: What do you have planned for future works? Will all titles remain
in the horror genre?

JS: I am currently working on what will likely end up being a novella. There’s a very loose tie in to Train Thoughts, which doesn’t require you to read it, but it’s there for those who are interested; more like an Easter egg.

I also have ideas for 2-3 novels and a bunch of short stories I might, or might not, eventually publish as a collection. I just need to find the time to get them all out of my head (read as: I’m lazy). They will all remain in the horror/thriller realm. It’s my favorite genre to read, watch, and live so I would like to contribute back to it the best I can.

(The exception to this, of course, is if my son and I were to ever publish – those aren’t horror related. Well…… maybe….)

AB: How can readers connect with you?

JS: The best way to connect with me as an author is through my author group on Facebook, Author Jay Sigler: https://www.facebook.com/groups/289418258269216/

I also have a Facebook page for everything Train Thoughts the book:

https://www.facebook.com/TrainThoughtsBook/

I am active on Instagram (https://www.instagram.com/trainthoughtsbook/) and am getting better about Twitter (https://twitter.com/train_thoughts).

Recently I’ve joined Litsy and here are also a bunch of other random links:

https://www.trainthoughtsbook.com/

https://www.goodreads.com/author/show/17911440.Jay_Sigler

https://www.amazon.com/Jay-Sigler/e/B07C52N2FY/
 

Infernal Reading for a Smoldering Summer

As the summer heat bares down, it is only appropriate to compile a blog featuring books that are hot as Hell. In my opinion, within the horror genre, hellfire and damnation is as hot as one can get.

When seeking infernal literature, I mostly search for classics. Otherwise, I try to find books that provide original concepts. Although there are many hellacious titles to select, it is a devil trying to pick the perfect scare. Still, I was able to narrow my list down to three unforgettable evils.

Featured below are some of my favorite novels within the demonic subgenre. Ones that have breathed new life into the eternal battle of good and evil. Normally, I try to feature books of a lesser popularity. Yet, I couldn’t compose this blog without honoring the classic that opened Hell’s gates.

“The Exorcist” by William Peter Blatty is the satanic subgenre’s granddaddy. Over the years, it has gained a solid fandom among Satanists and Christians alike. Reason being is because of its unrelenting approach between good vs. evil. Due to its intense nature, there is no doubt this classic belongs in the horror genre. Nevertheless, because of its glamorization of good conquering evil, it ascends the horror fandom.

The infamous tale of possession is simple. A Jesuit priest, Father Merrin, uncovers a relic symbolizing the demon, Pazuzu. Upon the recovery, a young girl named Regan starts displaying paranormal phenomena. Regan’s atheist mother, Chris, turns to Father Karras for help. Of course, her asking for his help is after all medical and psychological assistance fail.

Once Father Karras examines Regan, he approaches the local bishop for her exorcism. Yet, the bishop deems Father Karras as unqualified due to him being a heretic. In his place, Father Merrin becomes appointed to the case. So that Father Karras learns from the experience, he becomes Father Merrin’s assistant. Together, the men experience horrors that test their spirituality, mental wellbeing, and physical strength.

Book wise, the novel presents a greater depth compared to the movie. Blatty’s approach and description in storytelling is direct and impactful. By his “less is more” structure, he ushers the reader’s imagination into the devil’s den, otherwise known as Regan’s bedroom. Once here, Blatty exceeds the grotesque and strikes deeper with philosophy, psychology, and spirituality.

From a psychological perspective, the book delves deeper than other likeminded novels. Its most vital question asks, can different walks of life unify for a greater purpose? Due to its character interactions and philosophical differences, the answer is yes. As a heretic, an atheist, and a faith strong priest come together to save Regan, the story indicates humanity can bond under tragedy.

Combining philosophy and spirituality, one may be surprised how “The Exorcist” was conjured. While Blatty attended Georgetown University, he learned about a modern-day exorcism. This is what set the stage for his fictional novel. But, shock wasn’t his only goal. With this breakout success, his goal was to bring people closer to God. To achieve this, Blatty used shock value to comment on how God can use adversity to his favor. An example of this tactic receives verification in dialogue. A specific passage states, “His awful Grace.” This suggests that God will use catastrophes to bring nonbelievers to him.

“Mister B. Gone” by Clive Barker might not be as well-known as “The Exorcist.” Still, this novel shares the concept of demonic possession, but with a twist. In an interview with Craig Ferguson, Barker revealed his inspiration for this cult classic. Speaking in rhetoric, Barker asked, “If a demon can possess a little girl, why can’t it possess a book?”

Written in first person, this novel focuses on a lesser demon named Jakabok Botch, who lives in Hell. If that isn’t bad enough, he suffers child abuse from his irate father. Having become frustrated with his enslaved lifestyle, and his family, Jakabok escapes Hell. Upon doing so, he finds himself in the fourteenth century.

As Jackabok believes he is free at last, he comes to realize Earth is almost as bad as Hell. Not long after a corrupt priest captures him, Jackabok uses his first opportunity to escape. Acting upon his primal instincts, Jackabok runs amuck. Determined to become liberated, he does whatever necessary to survive and inflict pain.

Despite how Jakabok remains unredeemable throughout, he somehow gains sympathy from his readers. Perhaps it’s because the reader grows to know him as a personal conversationalist? Or maybe it’s his sense of dark humor and glee that accompanies his mischief? No matter what answer one decides on, this unique book redefines the genre.

Out of all of the books I have read, this is the first that has influenced my sympathy for a devil. Also, this is the first book I have read that breaks the fourth wall. In its first-person perspective, Barker tricks the senses. Because of its unique style, when one picks up “Mister B. Gone,” the book doesn’t feel like a book at all. Rather, it feels like one is experiencing a personal chat with the demon itself.

From beginning to end, Jakabok speaks directly to the reader. In repetition, he pauses storytelling. With panicked dialogue, he asks that the book in which he is speaking through be burned. Of course, we, as readers, disobey his pleas. As one progresses forward, Jakabok begins spouting off threats. He promises us harm if we don’t do what he says. This style of tantrum from a literary character can entice humor within the reader. Upon doubting him, Jakabok proves his existence. He achieves this by temporarily eliminating every other word of a sentence.

“Mister B. Gone” isn’t just a book, it is a literary work of art. One that allows the reader to interact through creative wordplay. Aside from this experience, one can take a message of simplicity away from the text. Someway, somehow, everyone is a slave to something, or someone, even if that something is a book.

“Horns” by Joe Hill presents a new concept that could become comedic. But, in this novel, there isn’t a single sentence that doesn’t stir dread. With Hill’s prior two books, I had already become an invested minion. After reading this novel, Hill has indefinitely captured my soul.

“Horns” opens with the protagonist, Ig, awakening with a hangover. Although being drunk isn’t in his character, last night was an exception. His reason for this unusual binge is because someone murdered his girlfriend, Merrin. Adding to his stress, he is a suspect of foul play due to a public argument he and Merrin shared prior to her death.

Recalling last night’s drunken stupor, Ig remembers vandalizing the town before passing out. The rest is a blur. After he stirs from sleep, Ig realizes not only does he have a hangover, he also has sprouted devil horns.

Throughout his attempts for help, Ig discovers the horns have granted him superpowers. Every person he now comes in contact with starts confessing their darkest secrets. If he touches someone, he receives a glimpse of their sins. His most powerful weapon is how he can make people surrender to their forbidden desires. The downfall is he can’t force anyone to act against their will.

Once embracing his new powers, Ig determines the horns haven’t cursed him. To his amazement, they have gifted him with the ability to solve Merrin’s murder. With pitchfork in hand, and red devil suit ready, Ig begins hunting Merrin’s murderer.

Besides the deep character development and original plot, “Horns” is full of metaphors. The color red reoccurs throughout in cherries, cherry bombs, and red hair. All of which symbolizes virginal loss. There are deep hints that the treehouse Ig and Merrin shared is the Tree of Life. Baptism symbolism receives depiction twice in this book. One is by the river where Ig suffers a childhood injury. Another form of baptism is fire and how it cleanses.

Excluding metaphors, the text provides interesting philosophies. Briefly, Ig speculates that the devil and women have always caused fear in God. The reason for including women in his thoughts is because like God, women can also create. Due to God’s fear of women, this is why he refused to spare Merrin during her assault and murder. At one point, Ig assumes that God no longer appreciates his creations. Opposing God, Ig considers the devil loves all humans despite their flaws.

No matter the thought process when entering “Horns,” or leaving it, Hill causes one to question the fibers of good and evil. He poses scenarios that cause one to ponder if the line between the two is nothing but a blur. By finishing “Horns,” it is the reader who decides what is morally just.

With these books, one is certain to have an experience during their read. By plot and style, these titles break apart comfort zones. By presenting philosophical, spiritual, and psychological topics, readers can engage debate long after completion. Regardless, if one receives a message or not from these novels, one is sure to be entertained during the hellfire temperatures of summer.